The Cupid Diaries

Someday..

2009-10-27T22:03:00.001+08:00

it been so long.
i will be back to update this blog.
so many things has happen.
so little time.
one day. i will return.

wANteD...

2009-09-11T23:39:00.002+08:00

We dont always get what we want, but if we try hard enough, we can get what we need. But what do we need? In order to find out, live your life to the fullest. Then u can answer it...

qUotEs oF mY LifE..

2009-08-26T20:16:00.001+08:00

It better to be hated for who you are.
than who you’re wasn’t

Life is to short so live life for the moment and not the future...

Boxer...

2009-08-26T05:53:00.003+08:00

When i was in the lower form, i hate wearing boxer. But after i try one it kind of cozy to wear one.So, from that day i always be wearing boxer but in emergency cases like boxer is out of stock i`ll wear my underwear.

But the story that im going to write is not the history but what amazing things i done in my boxer. Lot of things actually. It kinda funny that why i decided to wrote it.

I had gardening in my boxer, like trimming the garden in it, watering it, and lifting the big big vase or pot around the house and yes im in the boxer

I swim in the beach or should i say ocean in it, and also rivers and swimming pool. It quite convinience cause all you have to do is get rid off your pant or what ever your wearing and splash into the water. Easy i know no need to wear the bathing suit or swimming trunk.

i also play tennis in my pink boxer once in Jasin. It was fun and comfortable
compared to the track bottom and yes i won. But that was in Jasin and i play against Rempit (not real name).

Well basiclly i in the boxer most of the time in my home and in school or college. Im not embarased by it who cares and i dont care if anyone cares.

So, i like wearing boxer.A lot. LOL.

i ThiNk to Much...

2009-08-09T11:35:00.002+08:00

I come home this week hoping i can spend sometime with you. But it okay youre busy. Long time ago i would demand for attention, but it turn so bad that time. this time i have no right yo demand anything. So, i think i had done enough, i try enough. maybe it time already to back off. But i cant simply give up and never will. What i been thought is not to give up. So im not going to try anymore. What im going to do is to hope and wait...

mY maMa alWays SaiD...

2009-08-05T03:23:00.000+08:00

Like Forest Gump, my mama always say this to me when i broke up with her.

"when we lose something or someone important or love, God always replace it something better or someone better. It a promise."

She also mention there is a lots of prove. Okay. This is not wrong and i respected it. But...

But what if i don't want something or someone better. What if i`m settle with good or okay. That is not all. Then i ask myself, what if she loses me, can she find someone better than me or does god replace me then. I keep thinking and never knew the answer/s...

Woke up to A loveLy mOrninG..

2009-08-03T11:21:00.003+08:00

I woke up early today, as always to do what i have to do. After having quite a fatty breakfast which is a burger fill with mayonnaise and a very very diabetic kind of Milo, i grab the keys to my motorcycle and of course the helmet and heads out. I was sleepy, very very sleepy, but i`m cautious when i ride the bike cause it been a month a i didn't ride its so scary. I arrive at Imkeda, early so the very the early. LoL. I thought the training start at 9 but it start at 10. So i when the the nearest guardian to buy a pimple med cause i have a big pimple. Shitty shit. At 9.30 i arrive again in IMKEDA. still early so i slept on the counter for half an hour. So sleepy. At 10 the sis at the counter wake me up and i went to the site for my training. I did it easily as im so the very the hebat!! LoL. After that i head home now im in front of the computer rather suprise when i check my email or maybe im afraid or coonfuse or happy dont know which one yet but im hoping to solve it fast...

New Quotes and philosophy.

2009-08-03T02:05:00.003+08:00

Everyone have heard about destiny. Now i want to define it based on what i read and hear.

Destiny is the bridge we build to our love one...

So, in the other words we can control our destiny...

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You don't need to find someone who is complete.
First you must be complete yourself,
And then find someone who love you completely...

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My liFe so FAr...

2009-08-03T01:47:00.004+08:00

This day, i am overwhelming with IB stuff. There CAS hours to collect, assignment to be complete, report to finish etc. But still enjoying life cause i will live it to the fullest.

I did a sketch with the theme 1Malaysia the other day. It sucks cause my line was cut by my beloved BAZY. lol. But i don't care that much it just we look really really silly. But overall the sketch was a success, we won and will be performing again.

I love my TOK(Theory of Thinking) class. It make me thinks a lot. Thinking is my hobby. I love to think about the future, the past and the present. I manipulated facts just to justify them. I think freely as i want. But this habit has cause me my love. Because i think to mush i lost her. lol. Ignore that. The latest topic of This class is abortion. Its really really complicated. But fun. I get to see a lot point of view about abortion.

I talk a lot to these days. Lots and lots. I think i really need to control it. It started to annoy people and me. lol. But maybe i talk a lot because i`m afraid of the silence and being lonely. Who knows. But sometime i`m grumpy, and my classmate was so worry that they seem to be afraid to be noisy. That happen when i had a bad morning or i sleep really late. So beware..

That it for now. i love to write and love to know people are reading it. So do comment. Adios.

Things I dO on WeeKend...

2009-08-03T01:28:00.003+08:00

This day i do a lot of things in the weekend. Having a life of a teenager. Let see what i have done so far. 10 things..

Outing to banting and hang out in mcD.
Went to Alamanda and watch quarter of a movie.
Sleep in Surau Banting with the mosquitoes.
Sleep on a tables in the cold.
Went to sir Badarudin house(sound`s dad)
Play Dota and CS.
Watch movies. Lots and lots of movies.
Sleep really really late or never.
Shuffles hideously and get sticky and all sweaty.
Memorizing quotes in Pudu Raya.

Trust me it sound normal and boring but it the best adventure i ever had in a few weekend. I'm so living my life.

Dedicated only for you...

2009-08-03T00:33:00.006+08:00

This is a story of me falling in love, to a beautiful, complicated, fascinating woman who inhibits my soul. I'm pretty sure you are not coming back, but i just feel like saying this. Whether we are together or apart, you will always be the woman of my life. The only man i will envy, is the man who wins your hearts and i always believe it was my destiny to be that man. I can dream, can`t I? If we ever see each other again or you are walking one day and feel a certain presence beside you, that will be me missing you wherever i am. And i hope, you will never regret falling in love with me...

Classmate...

2009-07-11T22:58:00.017+08:00

This is my new classmate. But just the back because i know them roughly, it only been 3 weeks. But i really like them. So much fun and noise. But it doesnt mean 517 is not fun. I miss 517 a lot. Been with them for quite a time.

The details about my new classmate is we in M09R and im the class representative a.k.a class president, becaese i talk to much in the first class that everyone (well except husna maybe) point to me when the teacher ask whos the class rep. We study in LR4 the only year one class on the ground floor.

My class consist of 15 people, including me. There is 6 boys and 9 girls. The boys are the math genius and all fun Ash(Ashraf), kind Zhariff, sleepyhead and hardworking Akmal, sexy saxsofone player Seed(Azmir) and my tablemate Wan.The girls are the talk-a-lot Peanut(Syafinaz) and dont ask why or you will regret it, funny Bazzy and her patner in crime Aleena the blup blup fish,the taiping girl Yana and Zatil, unpredictable Nisah, the lover girl Atiqah, the suprise me all the time Yanti and last but not least, someone i dont want to mess with Husna.

ell, so far thats all i have to say about them, my new classmate. Next time maybe i introduce one by one. But with permision of course. I hope i didnt offended anyone. If i did, im so so so sorry. Nice to know you guys. Let strugle together to the very end...

p/s: i said i know so little but write so many. lol.

thEory oF loVe...

2009-07-11T22:17:00.003+08:00

Love is an idea,
Nothing more or less..

if you lost the idea,
if you somehow forget it,
the person you love become a stranger,
not a friend...

but if you and your ex are friends,
then the love is still there,
but it is being ignore..

Love live in the memories,
it can be forgotten,
but sadly,
it can also be remember...

2 wEEks in KMB

2009-07-07T20:19:00.003+08:00

wow. seriously i already spend so much time here. i like it so much. i met new friends, and still had a chaotic classmate. im noisy as always and most of the people know me or at least notice me cause im so hard not to notice( don't ask why).

My roommate is fun too. i usually torture him with my none stop babbling and he just seem okay with it for now. but dont worry i will gradually reduce my babbling as time goes by. i really really have a lot of idea and stuff to write, but i dont have a laptop yet and have no idea how to get internet service.

i also found a lot of talented tennis player here. it is so exciting because there is a lot of people that is better than me and i can improve my skills and experience playing with them. The facilities here is okay maybe this college is kinda old but the buildings looks new.

This IB is a diploma that means "internationally busy" is keeping me on the move 24\7 and thanks to it i will have no social life for two years. But i will still have fun. i love to stay and write more but sadly time is running out. maybe later i will write somethings else.

Thats all for know. TTFN(tata for now)

i HEarT u siS..

2009-06-22T22:51:00.004+08:00

Do you know why your parent name you well, by your name?? I do have a story by my name. Originally, my name is base on AMI. Then it turn to Ahmad Syahmi. The one that really give me my name is my beloved sister, Dzeti. She kind of have a crush on a boy in her early age, name ami. So he want her new little brother name ami too.. So my parent name me my name and called me AMI. So today is my sister 22th birthday, and i like to wish her the happiest birthday ever. Maybe I'm not the best or coolest brother but she is the best and coolest sister anyone can ever dream of. Happy birthday kakak, and i miss you around home.

a FUN adventure...

2009-06-22T01:08:00.004+08:00

Today is saturday. i was wake by my dad. he told me something but I'm dint even know what he said but it sounded like we`re going out. i went to the toilet to wash my face n brush my teeth. i wear the first shirt i got my hand on.

i went down stair, pick up the helmet and wait outside. quite long he make me wait.but I'm to lazy and sleepy go get inside back. we hop on the motorcycle and ride on. vrooomm vrommmm...

i had no idea where we are headed. i close my eyes a lot cause I'm so sleepy. i was shock when we arrived at the KLCC. hell. Im wearing a track bottom and a shirt i wore yesterday. hope i dint smell that bad.

i wonder why did he choose KLCC. we went to the isetan. just window shopping. i have no idea what are he searching for. after go up and down and up again. suddenly he said, "lapaq la, jom mkn".so we head to KFC which i dint really like. we eat and talk. so finally i know we came here to find my stuff for college.hahaha. i was like, KLCC? bapak aku ni biar betul. hahaha.

after finishing our meal my father head to the parking, so we are not going to buy stuff here after all. he just want to see the sale in isetan.hahaha.so another trip to masjid india.Mydin. bru betul abah aku.hahaha. we buy lots of stuff here. like bed sheet,stationary,brush,soap and more. but i didn't take much cause we ride a motorcycle.

when we arrive home my mother kind of babbling.why didn't go to Sogo? this and that. but I'm not picky. so i dint really care.i like what i got already. i`ll live.
this is fun. went shopping with dad and didn't even take a shower.hahaha. i love my dad..
happy fathers day abah... <3

What interesting things i did since i finish school to i start college...

2009-06-20T04:42:00.003+08:00

The reasons i did this because my holiday is almost finish, and i want to tell about it . The real reason is couldn't sleep. This going to start when i finish school, and end today, the last weekend before college...

nEw zEalaNd - i spend 3 weeks there at my sister place. It was all fun and relaxing thing to do after all that hard work and my mother say it a gift for my good Spm result which i didn't get it yet. Funny right, but thank god it was good.

PLKN - well all i had to say it was hellish and make i next interesting even.Another thing, it was for 3 month.

MaSSive heaRt BreaK - it happen the day i got the spm result. It happen because of me. Being what i am and the hellish experience for 3 month.

woRk for 3 daYs but thE pay iS 300++ - dint ask where i work or how i got so much pay. only a certain people know and they better shut up. But the 3 days work is not interesting because of the pay, and only 2 people know about it.

been iN a NighT cLub - they will be first for everything. so i go have a dance and that it. just want to experiences it.

AcT IN a ComMercial - thank for jihah for this one. believe me or not i did it and its in a club and with Search. but it was tiring like hell though. but the pay and experience pay it off.

QuiT sMokIng - they will be first for everything, but no last for the most of things. but smoking is a no to me. but a few puff is to take me off the edge. don't ask the reason.

leArN tO DriVe a cAr - hate it though driving a car. i like motorcycle better. it fast as you don't stuck in traffic but it a big risk to me and you.

eXpeRienCe an aCciDeNt - motorcycle thank to KORAY for this. well most of this experience is thanks to him.

Well,that wrap it ups. That all, i think, the best things happen to me during this break. But it not all good. It sucks more than it was good. But at least it over. I'm moving on and I'm happy that i was miserable.

EVerYbOdY liEs...

2009-06-19T00:10:00.003+08:00

Almost everybody lies right. But everyone have their own reason. Some are for the greater good, others are just selfish. But lie is actually a good thing because the truth is so hurtful...

LieS aRe LikE ChiLdrEn, haRdWork, bUt thEy aRe wortH It, beCausE tHe fuTure dePend oN tHem..

M.O.E Concert.

2009-06-18T22:30:00.001+08:00

During this holiday of mine i did become artistic. I been to some play, a theater, and a concert which this post all about. It was nice though the concert, but i didn't have pictures of it because i don't have a camera except for my phone, but i rarely use it. The thing is about seeing all of this stuff is to clear of my mind, relax. But, i decide that it not relaxing. Well i was very jealous of their skills and talents. Wow. Now i start wondering do i have talents?Wish i have one of those talents. But wishing doesn't get me any where does it? Well that was relaxing. LOL...

House M.D

2009-06-18T05:40:00.000+08:00

So far this story end at season 5. Well it end not as i expected. If you are watching this story, i meant tv series you would know that house never wrong and end up solving all case he got. That make him pure genius, despite the fact he is rude, has no manner and his life is misrable. But what i like about him is he see thing through rational ang logic thought. Mean his judgement were not base on feeling or any part of the unrational brain. By the way, what im going to say is this season sucks. Kutner die so suddenly, and the finale is house is crazy. How coulg the brilliant doctor that never make mistake gone crazy. What the hell right. But, i cant judge it yet, because maybe the will be the next season where everything will fall to place. I hope so or my favourite tv show sucks...

Lesson of Life 1

2009-06-17T07:15:00.000+08:00

`Life is just like a series of room,

and who we get stuck in those rooms with,

adds up to what our live are going to be..."

Driving Experience

2009-06-16T12:28:00.000+08:00

Last Monday, i had a driving lesson and it was hell. I dint know what got into me. Maybe i was tired but it was a mess. The teacher that teach me is one thing. He keep scolding me and mocks me. Damn of course i make mistake. If I'm so good at driving why in the hell i join the driving lesson. Despite all the fact, it kinda great experience. That day was the first time i drive on the real road. It toke me by surprise at first. He didn't tell that we are going on the real road. Even though i make a lot of mistake and hearing a lot of comment, i still think learning process never going to be easy.

Break Even

2009-06-16T12:08:00.000+08:00

I'm still alive but barely breathing
just praying to a god that i don`t believe in
cos i got time while she got freedom
cos when a heart break no it don`t break even

What I'm going to do when the best part of me was always you,and what I'm going to say when I'm all choke up and you`re okay
I'm falling to pieces...

This lyrics is a song from the script. The message of this lyrics is when people had a heart break it doesn't break equally. Maybe the he doesn't feel a thing because his ego for example. Some break up make both side suffer for different reasons. But in this song he is having problem from the break up, while the she is okay with it....

A Story Begins..

2009-06-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

Love. This word has many definitions. Different situation, different people, define it differently. Some say love is not a feeling, it an ability. But i said love is unique. But unique doesnt describe this story. What describe it then? Well that is for you to deside...